You Make Me Smile :):)

I am so utterly burnt out. Graduation cannot come fast enough. I feel physically and mentally exhausted these days. I cannot wait for a much needed vacation. On the bright side, there is a good chance I will get I visit washington this summer. It is my favorite place to visit in the summer. It is so gorgeous and peaceful. I am looking forward to that. Hopefully I will make it by then.

I have accepted the fact that people will use you and abuse you.  That is just how the world works.  People are mean. People are selfish and self centered. I understand this. Yet, why do I still feel so hurt? Life is rough. I need a helmet.

Today was a long day. Mostly due to the fact I was at urgent care with my mom for about 5 and a half hours. It’s still really hard watching her go through so much pain and suffering. You would think after 5 years since she got sick I would become numb to it. I guess you never get used to watching someone you love endure the torture of their illness. I wish I could. It would make the hospital trips much easier.

I cannot wait for this quarter to be over. I am EXHAUSTED. I feel like I put all my mental strength into the winter quarter. I worked my ass off in school that’s for sure. I had a lot of fun classes and I enjoyed everything I learned, but I need a break. It sucks the break is only a week long until the spring quarter, but I will take what I can get haha. Then it is back to the grind. I feel like next quarter is going to be just as rough and I can already feel myself becoming physically and psychologically depleted. I pray that I will get through this last quarter in one piece. Plus, all the hard work I am doing will result in my Bachelor’s degree. Finally! I can’t wait until my June 16 commencement.  It’s taken a long time, but I can taste the undergraduate finish line!

….and then there is graduate school…